I was pretty emotional on Sunday, which was her actual birthday. We had a big bash with family and close friends at our house on Saturday and everything was so involved and busy I didn't really have time to process how much time has flown by. It's crazy how fast kids grow. Everyone tells you when your child is born how time goes by in an instant and to cherish the time. It is so true. I can't believe Eleanor is so big. She's a kid now! She's not a toddler, she's not a baby, she's a little girl! For her 4th birthday I got her a Kaboodle full of disposable makeup sponges and mascara wands and took her for a mother/daughter mani/pedi. It's incredible to be able to do these things with her and I love watching her grow. There is also so much that I miss, especially looking at old pictures realizing that my baby is no longer a baby and every day, every minute she is growing older and older. I fear she won't need me once she's bigger and more independent, and I know she's going to go through so many changes and phases there will certainly be a time where she doesn't even like me. I know these things are real and are coming at some point. I just try to live in the now and soak up every minute of watching her grow.